Caffeine and Brown Noise
Or how I finally got a few thousand more words on my novel
Before we begin…
What do you do when your ability to concentrate is threatened? What tools do you reach for? How well do they work for you? And if you are an adult with ADHD or have experience with the condition, would you please help me with some research for my novel?
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My two weeks of productivity
Sitting down today feels a little strange. The two weeks since we last connected here have been strangely full and feel, in retrospect, quite long even though I cannot point to any one thing that made it so. It could be because I am, in spite of my worst tendencies, achieving a level of productivity that has been elusive.
For a while, it felt like this song was about me:
Then I took the Thanksgiving holiday off. The decision was a sudden one, driven entirely by an instinct for self preservation. I was a little ragged around the edges thanks to too many sleep-interrupted nights, too many days that seemed to revolve around the needs of Lily, our dog with cancer, and the anxiety of Frida, her healthier but confused canine companion. I was struggling to make a dent in the next section of my novel and I wanted to see what might happen if I simply obeyed my instincts to take an unplanned break.
I return to you refreshed from a peaceful Thanksgiving and high on the news, received Tuesday, that Lily needs no more chemo. She is on track for a full return to life as usual in a few weeks. I am also buoyed by some discoveries that have helped me return to a measure of productivity in my writing. For what it’s worth, here are my “discoveries” or, in some cases, rediscoveries.
Caffeine, in the right doses at the right time, is a miracle drug to a writer who believed she was a morning person. Turns out that a cup of coffee at 2 PM gives me three solid hours of writing time with energy to spare. Turns out that a morning person can also be an afternoon person or, lately, a night person. Makes me wonder: are there other stories I tell myself about me that aren’t necessarily true?
Brown Noise. This article, encountered while researching ADHD, sent me to Youtube where I’ve been playing this over and over again during my work sessions. It’s better than sound-canceling headphones for me. It’s like a blanket between me and distraction. The visuals could use a little work…
Exhaust the dogs and they will sleep for those three hours without complaint. Mostly. Any complaints they do issue are obscured by the brown noise and a wall of steely resolve that I’ve not felt for too long and welcome. I can look right into a pair of beseeching eyes and look away again.
Pause and observe that no one keeled over dead or went into a decline when I did what I wanted to do and needed to do.
Call for research assistance: ADHD in adults
As I mentioned, I’ve been researching ADHD, particularly in adults, for my novel. One of my main characters is diagnosed as an adult and I want to understand her and her experience better. It’s quite possible that I’ve misunderstood the situation with her because there are other conditions that produce similar symptoms. If you have any experience with ADHD in adults or are a writer who has ADHD I would love to connect with you to be sure I am getting this right and treating the condition with the understanding and sensitivity it deserves. You can email me directly at elizabethmarro@substack.com to let me know how best to reach you.
Books!
Just started …
Solito: A Memoir by poet Javier Zamore is a moving and vivid account of Zamora’s journey from Ecuador to the United States as a child on his own. Zamora kept large chunks of this story to himself for years but in these pages, he makes the reader feel each step, each moment of fear, elation, or exhaustion.
Just finished…
Small Things Like These and Foster by Claire Keegan, both novellas, and the book Writing The Novella by Sharon Oard Warner. Keegan was new to me but I intend to read all of her work. These two novellas, the first about an ordinary man in midlife who resists then makes a decision that will change his life and the second, about a young girl who lives with relatives for the summer, are small books rooted in the mundane but each packs an emotional wallop when it holds up a mirror so we can see how much hides beneath the surfaces of a life. Warner’s book is a craft book that held more interest for me after reading Giovanni’s Room last month and now the two Keegan books. I’ve always struggled to write “short” fiction but perhaps writing a novella offers a new path for me and one that makes sense given how long it takes me to write a novel.
Cradles of the Reich by Jennifer Coburn. I will be introducing you to Jennifer and this compelling novel next week but I encourage you not to wait. It is an excellent if unsettling read.
Next up…
The Cruelest Month by Louise Penny - the third novel in Penny’s Inspector Gamache series arrived from the library this week and promises to satisfy my curiosity about whether or not Gamache survives the internal attacks of those who want to bring him down while offering another interlude in the peaceful but murderous village of Three Pines. Also: I remain fascinated by the marriage of Clara and Peter and wonder what shape that will take as she emerges from his shadow and shines on her own.
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P.S. And now, your moment of Zen…Turtle Dreams
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I am diagnosed adhd as an adult and I’m a writer. Going to try brown noise also! Feel free to email me about the adhd. I have another friend in the same boat and we discuss it constantly.
I'm excited to check out the brown noise